To say that the last year for us has been a little trying is putting it fairly lightly. I spent a bit of time this morning re-reading entries on this blog. And while i did post a few times about some of the good points of this year, it seemed pretty bleak, to be honest.
This morning, Brad and i were talking about 2011 and i said: “Thanks for going through that year with me.” he said it was his pleasure and that there were more good times than bad times. True, it’s just that the bad times are easier to remember. which really sucks.
With our boys safely tucked into bed, Brad and i had a quiet New Years Eve listening to records and playing Scrabble. It was perfect. Brad kicked my butt 2 outta 3. There will be a rematch… oh yes, there WILL be a rematch. (watch yo’self!)
Seeing as this is the first day of the new year, its fitting then to give you a bunch of random tidbits, in no particular order, of twenty-eleven.
- hey brad, if you could describe 2011 in one word, what would it be: “Over?… Strengthening, Intense” Okay, so those are a few words.
- A conversation just now –
Laura: “what’s that called when you’re making a sword and you put it in the fire, then you smash it like crazy, then you put it back in the fire, then you smash it some more, then you put it back in the fire?”
Brad: “Tempering? To make it harder?”
Brad: “Yeah, Tempering. It gets really hard… but when it breaks it shatters into a million pieces.”
Laura: “Yeah, that was last year.”
this year we met the wonderful folks at Leven’s Coffee Company and we’re pretty close to reaching our goal for fundraising for our trip to Philly in July, thanks largely to Marie and Aaron and their kindness and generosity. (They are opening soon in their new location, i’ll post when that happens so you can go check them out!!)
My friendship with the other NICU moms i met when Ozzie was born has strengthened – we have a special bond, we are soul sisters now. Love you guys.
Our little family unit has been overwhelmed by the love and support of our respective extended families. I can’t tell you how many times my mom has dropped everything to come and help with the boys, not just when Ozzie was sick. But also to help me clean my house when it’s at the point to complete and utter chaos. Her and my dad also would take Cedric without question when Ozzie was hospitalized, and between them and my brother and his wife and Brad’s mom and dad and his brothers’ families – we knew that Cedric was safe and in good hands surrounded by people who love him, when we couldn’t be with him. I’ll never be able to thank you all enough for that, for taking Cedric into your homes and comforting him when he was scared and confused and unsure why he couldn’t just be at home with us.
Also, my wonderful mother in law has done more loads of our laundry this year than i really care to admit. So many times i would come home to find baskets of clean clothes, neatly folded, sitting by the front door.
This past year Cedric has given me an amazing gift. I realized one day as he played with his brother on the floor that Ceddy is the one person who sees Ozzie as truly perfect. He doesn’t look at him through the veiled eyes of knowing his brother is ‘different’ from other babies. He doesn’t think his face looks ‘funny’, he’s just Ozzie. He helps me to remember that Ozzie IS perfect.
Ozzie has changed our lives, in more ways than we can imagine. But the most prominent being that both Brad and I are having to learn a new level of patience. Like, a whole new WORLD of patience. But through this year, Brad and i have found new strength in each other.
No, this year has not been easy. But there’s a quote that love that i feel really sums up this year for us.
“A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor can a man be perfected without trials.” Chinese Proverb
So, with this in mind, we are on our way to perfection.
Here’s to 2012, and thanks for reading!