Post Vancouver (image heavy)

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Hanging out in the Saskatoon Terminal, waiting for our flight

We left for Vancouver Sunday afternoon. Ozzie is a super awesome flier, provided there is plenty of Chocolate milk, a fully charged iPod, and books to read.

IMG_8592The weather was pretty gross when we left, so our flight was delayed, and our connecting flight in Calgary was delayed, which meant when we actually landed in Vancouver it was 6:30…which was 8:30 our time.  Our little man was tired, but he hardly complained, lucky for us.  My Uncle Jim picked us up from the airport and drove us out to Maple Ridge (about an hour out of Vancouver) where we were staying with my Uncle Rob and his family.

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Ozzie loves taking pictures of his feet.

My Uncle Rob is only five years older than i am, so all my little cousins are the same age as my kids!  🙂

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Brady and Brad havin some breakfast

Brady is 3, his birthday is at the end of October, just weeks after Ozzie’s birthday. He was so excited to play with Ozzie, and brought him cars and transformers to play with, but Ozzie was a little overwhelmed by all the attention and retreated to the safety of mama or dada, whichever was closest. But that’s okay, because Brady was just as happy to be with Brad or I, he’s a total cuddle-bug.

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Brady sat down beside me on the couch and said: “Hi, it’s me! Brady!” before climbing into my lap too.

I thought this photo was funny…. Ozzie took it… BLACKMAIL PHOTOS showing Upsy Daisy and Iggle Piggle engaging in questionable activities!! what will Makka Pakka think??
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Here’s a photo of Carter, who will be 2 in march, and Ozzie and Brady. It was pretty crazy to see these three boys together, Ozzie is the oldest, and yet he’s the same height as Carter who is a year younger than him… my little shorty man.

IMG_8652 Our appointment was on Monday afternoon, and my Grandma lent us her car so we could drive to the Children’s Hospital and back. It was a little nerve wracking at first, to drive into Vancouver. We had both of our phones going, mine with the step by step instructions, and brad’s with the GPS Apple Maps so we could see our current location.  It was simple enough, once we got past all the construction and the exits and ramps and things.

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this is what Nov 4 looked like in Vancouver…

we were a bit early, we wanted to make sure we had a lot of time to get to where we were going… so we had some lunch in the Hospital cafeteria… which had a burger place, and a sushi counter, and pizza, as well as Extreme Pita… along with the the regular cafeteria foods like sandwiches, salads, and soups, etc.  OOOOooooh Children’s Hospital of Saskatchewan… i hope you are taking notes and have some healthier options in your cafeteria….

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IMG_8655first up was the eye exam, which Ozzie did okay with.  We could pretty much bribe him with anything as long as he knew he would get the iPod afterwards.

IMG_8656They tried to get Ozzie to follow their lights, and they patched him which he DID NOT LIKE.  This test was not any different than the ones he’s had in Saskatoon.  Pretty standard test, i suppose.

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getting his drops, he’s so good at drops

in the next test he had his pupils dilated with dilating drops.  She told us that there’s a bit of scratching on his corneas, so we need to be lubricating his eyes on a more regular basis.  I asked if his corneas were damaged, and she said no.  She likened it to having chapped lips, and if we keep them moist more regularly it will be more comfortable for Ozzie and the corneas will heal.   She also tested his vision, which is excellent.  They confirmed what our ophthalmologist told us in Saskatoon, that Ozzie uses each eye independently, and that his eyes are crossed because the inside muscles of his eye have had no resistance because there’s no information getting to the muscles on the outside of his eye, which is consistent with Cranial Nerve 6 malformation or deletion which occurs in people with Moebius Syndrome.

IMG_8660his pupils were so big, it’s too bad i couldn’t get a better picture.

Finally we met with Dr. Lyons.  He was very nice and gave us a lot of information about what he thinks we should do.  Basically, we’ve missed the window where surgery would have helped his brain to use both eyes together.  He said to have that happen the surgery should have been done around 6 months, with the window closing around 2.5 years.  We were pretty occupied with other things at those times, like keeping him alive.

He said he’s happy to do the surgery, and that there is no rush so whenever we’d like to go forward is when it will happen.  He recommended before he goes to school, to help with socialization, which we sort of agree with also.

Then he walked us through the surgery and what that would entail.

rectusSo, there are 4 muscles groups that move the eye.  The muscles on the inside of his eyes (the Medial Rectus) have been pulling his eyes in, and they may be very tight, almost like leather, he said, because they haven’t had any resistance from the outer muscles (the Lateral Rectus).  He would like to inject those inner muscles with Botulinum Toxin, otherwise known as Botox, to paralyze the muscles first.  With those muscles paralyzed we can see if his eyes will correct out a little bit without having to actually cut him. This is the BEST case scenario.  From there, he would move the upper and lower muscles (Superior and Inferior Rectus) out and away from the inner eye muscles.  This is the most likely scenario.  Having them farther out will give the eyes the resistance they need to stay straight, however it’s not an exact science, and it may take 3-4 surgeries to get the placement right.  If the inner eye muscles are SUPER tight, he may also have to move them, to make them shorter, essentially.

The problem is that each time he needs to move a muscle, he has to disrupt the blood vessels that supply the eyes with blood to keep his eyes healthy.

He said that ideally, he would inject Ozzie’s eyes with the Botox a week or two before the surgery to see how they react, rather than doing it at the same time as the surgery, but he didn’t want us to have to fly out there for a procedure, then fly home, only to come back a week later for the surgery.

So, we asked if that was something that our ophthalmologist could do here in Saskatoon? He said that, yes, she could if she was comfortable putting Ozzie under General Anesthetics (which she’s not – part of the reason we were referred to Dr. Lyons in the first place) but he is going to write her a letter explaining the plan and that he’d like for her to do the injections here.  So hopefully that will work out.

Then Brad got to ask about patching.  We’ve asked about patching, here in saskatoon, but were just told flat out: “Yeah, that won’t do anything”.  So brad asked the doc about patching Ozzie just to see what he’s capable of.  We were also told he wouldn’t be able to blink (which he does, if he thinks about it, something Brad taught him to do) and we were also told he’d never smile (which he does) so who’s to say that Patching might actually help?  We don’t actually KNOW what Ozzie’s capable of until we try.  This doctor said: “It certainly can’t hurt him to try” which made Brad feel great, because if we don’t try before surgery, brad would never be able to stop wondering what might have happened if we had tried.

We were the last appointment of the day, and Dr. Lyons said he appreciated that we came a very long way to see him so he really took the time to answer all our questions and to make us feel listened to and comfortable with him as a surgeon.  We really appreciated that.  We left his office at 5:15, and made our way back home to my Uncle’s house. 

IMG_8670Poor dude was exhausted, and could you blame him? It was practically his bedtime (in Saskatoon) by the time we left the hospital.   Luckily, he went to bed really easily, because in the morning after breakfast we were going home on the airplane!

The next day was rainy and yucky, a total contrast to the beautiful day we had the day before.  My Uncle Rob drove us to the airport on his way to work.  IMG_8671

We are so thankful to have such great families who help us out at times like this.  Seriously! Between my Uncle Jim who picked us up from the airport, my Uncle Rob who housed us and fed us and brought us to the airport, my Grandma who lent us her car – our only expenses were Brad’s plane ticket and the food we bought for traveling. (A HUUUUGE shout out to Hope Air who generously donated Mine and Ozzie’s flights, seriously, thank you)

Ozzie was so happy to be going home, and we were too.  Brad and I were also happy to get free drinks (we were sitting in WestJet’s Plus Section – We upgraded brad’s seat so he’d be in the plus section with Ozzie and i) and a snack! Yay Airplane booze!

IMG_8672 and because our flight touched down in Calgary, but we didn’t actually have to deboard, we got a second round from Calgary to Saskatoon.  Yay Airplane beer!IMG_8731Ozzie didn’t really have any interest in looking out the window, but we did get to see a bit of the rockies as we flew over them before Ozzie shut the window… it was pretty bright for his poor little eyes.

IMG_8727It was nice to get home, even if Saskatoon is covered in snow.  🙂

I also wanted to say a really heart felt thank you to my mom and dad for dropping us off at the the airport and watching Cedric Sunday afternoon, taking him to TaeKwon Do, and keeping him overnight and then taking him to school in the morning.  And to Brad’s mom and dad for picking Cedric up from school and keeping him overnight Monday night, and then picking us up from the Airport Tuesday Afternoon.  We are really blessed with great families.  Thank you so much.  It’s nice to just Not Worry about Cedric because we know he’s with people who love him and that he’s safe. ❤ we love you guys!!

So, now we will look into patching Ozzie and seeing how that goes, and wait to hear from Dr Lyons and/or Dr. Erraguntla regarding the Botox injections, and then we go from there.

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We’re Flying Away…

Brad and i are on our way to Vancouver, BC today with Ozzie to meet with his new eye Surgeon. I’m hoping for a totally uneventful flight.

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i love how these boys love each other

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Birthday photos in the leaves

Here’s a few pictures, though.  Ozzie turned Three in October, and he’s pretty proud of that and will tell anyone and everyone that he’s three now, and that he’s not a baby, he’s a big boy.
As Brad and i are frantically getting all the last minute things together, i’m starting to feel a bit of that ‘mama guilt’ about leaving poor Ceddy behind.  But, he is older now.  He understands more, and he knows that i will be coming back.

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Cutest little smile

Also, here’s a few shots of Halloween:

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The most adorable pirate of the seven seas

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EXPECTO PATRONUM!

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Happy Halloween

i’ll update on what the doc says when we get back! happy trails.

September: come and gone

Well, September is over and we’ve made it through the first bought of colds at our house.
Thankfully we were able to stay at home with this one.  We had a super amazing summer though, so i shouldn’t complain.

We did lots of saline nebulizers, which Ozzie loves and asks for when he’s sick – so that’s handy.  IMG_7931We also had an appointment with his Respirologist, of course when he was sick.  I was super worried about the appointment because he’s ONLY ever seen Ozzie when he’s sick, and i was pumped because he had been healthy for so long.

BUT all my fears were for naught, as the doc said he is the healthiest he’s ever seen him!  Even though he had a cold.  He still had lots of colour in his face and his lungs sounded great.  So, we’ve been discharged from his care, unless something else comes up in the future!! YAY OZZIE!!

IMG_7945It’s kind of nice to have some Mom/Ozzie time now that Cedric is in Kindergarten.  It’s just easier to do the things we need to do without the older one getting bored, or being dragged all over the city to all the appointments.  Plus, Ozzie and i get to go for a walk every day when we take Ced to school.  It’s been nice.

I’m still not looking forward to the coming months, as they carry with them Cold and Flu… and the trip to Vancouver.  But we’re takin’ it day by day.

August Update

I was informed the other day that i hadn’t updated Ozzie’s blog in a while, guilty as charged.  It seems when everything is good, i don’t think to write… but really, we should be celebrating all the good that’s happening.  I tend to dwell on the other ‘stuff’.

Being a stay at home mom has been pretty amazing, but the problem i’m finding is that without something to break up the monotony, the days tend to zoom by and i’m constantly asking, ‘what day is it today?’ – i never know.  I have to look on my phone to see if it’s a Tuesday are a Wednesday, only to discover it’s actually Friday.  This happens a lot.

So where to start? about a month ago i got a call from our ophthalmologist, she said she had just returned from a conference in Montreal where she asked some of her colleagues about Moebius Syndrome.  None of them had heard of it, which is not surprising.  Anyway, she decided that because of the bilateral strabismus associated with ozzie’s moebius and his limited corneal sensitivity, she was not comfortable performing his strabismus surgery.  To that effect, she referred us to the Ophthalmologist, Dr. Lyon, in Vancouver at BC Children’s Hospital.  He has performed this surgery on another Moebius kid (who we met at the conference).  We fly to Vancouver in November for our consult.  I’m not exactly thrilled at the prospect of his surgery taking place so far away from home, but i’m glad that she was honest about her comfort level.  i’d rather her NOT perform surgery on my child if she was uncomfortable.  Still, Vancouver…. sigh.

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climbing “da baloo chair” at the park

Ozzie has just been progressing in leaps and bounds!  He walks damn near 100% of the time now!  He is getting more confident with each step, even though he is wobbly and unsteady, and easy to fall down.  He just gets back up and continues on his way.  He’s even trying to RUN a bit, which is adorable and terrifying.   He is more determined to try things on his own, although he will still sometimes ask for help.

His eating is still much the same, pureed foods, but they do have some texture.  I’m also giving him pieces of banana on a plate to eat, and those little Bear Paw cookies that are super soft? he likes those too, in little pieces on a plate.

IMG_7081He still is not sucking through a straw (i had to help him have some of this slurpee with the spoon end) but just this weekend i think he figured out how to drink out of his red sippy cup.  now we carry it with us where ever he goes, in case he wants some “Wadder ina da new red sippy”.

IMG_7060He is still drinking from his MAM bottles, but mostly just during the day – at night he has a little drink from a cup before bed.

Some other new developments – he had his first trip to the Pediatric Dentist last month – and it was horrible.  It was traumatic for him, i knew it would be.  He does NOT like things put in his mouth, on account from all the suctioning, i’d wager.  The dentist did manage to get a look at his teeth though, and confirmed that he still did not have his last set of molars – which he is CURRENTLY working on. yay.

She didn’t notice and dead or dying teeth, although there was some tartar build up, and helped us devise a new bedtime routine that included brushing. Teeth brushing has always been hit or miss with him, and then it was only the front teeth he’d let us clean… Apparently, the secret was a “NEW” toothbrush.  Now he has no problem letting us brush his teeth, including the back ones… all because of his “NEW” toothbrush. lol. funny kid.

IMG_7290The dentist also asked us about his pacifier use.  We have been trying on and off to wean him from the sucky, but in times when he is in hospital, or stressed out, or scared, the sucky seems to calm him down.  So we will go for weeks without using it, then there will be a relapse.  She told us not to worry too much about it, even though he is almost 3.  She said that Dentists say that kids should be done with the sucky around 3-4, but that’s to avoid any future dental problems.  Ozzie will have dental problems, regardless, due to his smaller jaw, asymmetric tongue, drool, oral aversion, and inability to use his tongue to move food around his mouth.  yay, a future of dental bills.  we will see her again in six months.

IMG_6961Ozzie also moved from night time boots and bar wear for his club feet to night time AFO wear.  (Ankle-Foot-Orthotic).  It was becoming impossible for him to sleep in the boots and bars, especially when sick.  He couldn’t sleep on his side.  It’s like sleeping with a snowboard attached to your feet.  Now he wears these braces which keep his ankle at the right angle while he sleeps, but they are not attached to each other, so he has some freedom of movement.

IMG_6967He’s been having a pretty great summer.  We’ve been avoiding appointments as much as possible.  (sorry jenn! we’ll see you in september tho!) but we did go to his check up with his pediatrician, Dr. Leis, who is amazing. i love her. so much.

She said Ozzie looks great, which is great!  One of his ear tubes has come out, the other is still in.  His lungs sound great.  His mobility is great.  His language is incredible and his speech is slowly coming along…But it appears that Ozzie is on the 58th percentile for his weight, and only the 0.1th percentile for his height.  In the last year, he has only grown 1 cm.

Percentiles rank the position of an individual by indicating what percent of the reference population the individual would equal or exceed. For example, on the weight-for-age growth charts, a 2-year-old girl whose weight is at the 25th percentile, weighs the same or more than 25 percent of the reference population of 5-year-old girls, and weighs less than 75 percent of the 2-year-old girls in the reference population. – source

So, Ozzie is as tall as 0.1 percent of almost 3 year old boys.  It’s troubling that he has grown, linearly, such a small amount.  She ordered some tests, and i had to take him for a blood draw, which was awful.  I had to lay down on the bed with him and hold him still between my legs and hold down his chest and shoulder with my hand.  He screamed.  And cried.  And when we were all done, he said; “Mama, i go to my home in mama’s baloo van.”  it was sad.

the tests showed nothing glaringly obvious, so now we are referred to the Endocrinologist (the hormone doctor) to see what he thinks, and what the next step of tests will be.

Aside from that (and the teething) it’s been a pretty fine summer.

Beads of Courage Colour Festival Fun Run

at the end of last year, i had spent a lot of time on my treadmill running – and i decided that i’d like to run a 5K (starting small) this year.  So i suggested it to my friend who was my work out buddy at the time.  We met through NICU and both our babies have medical ‘stuff’.

Anyway, she countered with “instead of raising money for someone else’s cause, why don’t we organize a run and raise money for Beads of Courage?” (which both our kids are participants of).  It seemed like a crazy idea, but kind of doable… so i agreed.  Let’s do it. How hard could it be?  Tara jumped on the phone and almost instantly had the support of a local running store in Saskatoon (Brainsport can i get a hell yeah?)

but then we didn’t talk about it again, too much, until mid-end of January.  Tara was inspired by all the photos of Color Runs on the internet (which is inspired by the Holi Festival in India) and suggested that our fun be a colour festival, and the symbolism of the runners being covered in colour was not lost on us.  We imagined our runners starting all dressed in white, and by the end, colourful rainbows – just as our kids started out with nothing but their medical ‘stuff’, and how they are accumulating these beautiful rainbow strings of  beads to tell their medical stories.  awesome.

In mid February we got on a conference call with Beads of Courage Canada and got their approval and support – we really just wanted to give back to the program that meant so much to our families.

We had never done anything like this before, and even though we weren’t really sure how to start, but we had some great help from Brian at Brainsport, and then – something magical happened – an amazing woman named Maryann contacted Tara saying she wanted to help us… so we met with her, and she was like an angel! This woman is organized, she has experience with runs and organizing runs, and she…knows…everyone.

She has been an wonderful asset to the run team! I honestly don’t know what we would have done without her.

So, we carried on and over the next couple of months we secured sponsors, ordered our colour, we ordered runners’ shirts, started accumulating swag for the registration bags,

Then in May, a few weeks before the run, we had a hiccup with the city and had to move run locations.  It was instant Panic, but Tara is a machine and she made everything happen and we secured a new location (which, oh my gosh, what an awesome park we used instead of the Meewasin trail) Lakeview Park was totally a better venue for our needs – the course was great, and gave an option for those with smaller kids to do 2.5K as the course was 2 loops, there are two playgrounds, lots of free parking, it really worked out well and i hope we can use the park again next year.

The day before the Sask Marathon, Tara and i sat at a table and talked about the our fun run, and sold Team Bead kits to the people running the Marathon, Half Marathon and the 10K the next day.  (this was not planned… but Maryann, she’s an ideas person, and this idea was great!) Tara and i had brought along our Team Bead kits to assemble for our run, seeing as we would just be ‘sitting there’ most of the day.  So, as we were assembling the kits, and talking about the Beads of Courage program (i say *we* but mainly it was Tara, she’s such a great public speaker) when a group of runners said they were really sad that they weren’t going to be around for the run because they were running a marathon in Jaspar… so, Maryann suggested; “why don’t you buy a set of team beads today and wear them in Jaspar?” and before we knew it, we were selling our team bead kits.  🙂

We raised $600 for Beads of Courage that day, and did get some more online registrations that weekend.

Tara and her daughter, myself, Peter from Roadrunners and Maryann at the Sask Marathon Expo

Tara and her daughter, myself, Peter from Roadrunners and Maryann at the Sask Marathon Expo

Leading up to the final day of registrations, we had about 80 or so people signed up to run, and we were feeling mighty good about that.  We kept being told that for a first year fundraising run, that was an excellent number! so, yay us!

and then.

Registration closed on May 29th at 7pm for our run, and in that day we almost doubled our registrant number.  We were completely sold out.  We had to turn people away!  Now, how can a fundraising run be sold out, you may ask? Well, we bought colour for 200 runners….thinking that would be SOOO MUCH COLOUR, but then, in the end, i think we had close to 170 people running, plus all the children (10 and under were free) and we wanted to makes sure that everyone had signed up got colour thrown at them.  next year, we will order more.

The last week before the run was just Tara and i running around getting last minute stuff done, we spent all of saturday together picking things up and organizing the last minute stuff… My main job was organizing volunteers, and i have to say – that we had… THE BEST volunteers!!!   Thank you, thank you, thank you!!… and then, it was Sunday…

i picked up Tara bright and early, and we arrived at the park and the set up began… and the volunteers arrived, and the colour was divided, and the colour stations were set up (With Tara driving 500 lbs of coloured corn starch to their new homes in open containers…in my van… i wasn’t nervous at all O_O)… then the runners started arriving, and it looked like everything was happening on schedule, with no huge hiccups…. it was amazing.

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myself, Tara, and Maryann about an hour before the run

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Setting up

Runners Arriving!

Runners Arriving!

Just a few words before we start!! (Tara, myself, and Maryann)

Just a few words before we start!! (Tara, myself, and Maryann)

We all sang O Canada together (which i thought was a nice touch, and it signaled to everyone else that we were about to start) and then it was GO TIME!!

Tara and I could not stop smiling! and we decided to do a quick run through the colour stations as well.

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Twirling through violet

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Mi Amore

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My whole family came! i was so happy! My mom and dad, my older brother and his wife, my younger brother, and my baby brother and his daughter. What a great day.

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My brother in law came with his wife and kids, so awesome to see them there, as well my mother in law and some of her friends.

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Cedric ran with grandma most of the way, he had a great time with his cousin Lila!

My family, Before and After!

My family, Before and After!

So, it was an amazing day.  I look at these pictures and i just smile and smile.

We are already planning for next year, thinking of things that could have gone better, ways to improve upon the success of this year… but the absolute best part is that we raised over $13,000 for Beads of Courage! (I don’t have a final number, but i know it’s at least that!)  I am so proud of us.

and i do it for this guy.

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Cranial Nerves

Typically, Cranial 6 and 7 are the ones most effected by this syndrome, but in some cases other nerves are effected.  With Ozzie, we don’t really know the exact state of all of his cranial nerves.  They could be weak, or malformed, or missing entirely.

For him, he has NO outward movement of the eyes, at all (Cranial 6) .  He has no movement in his face surrounding his eyes, but he’s been showing movement in his face around his mouth (Cranial 7), even developing his own brand of cheeky grin!  So cute.

We don’t know for sure about Cranial Nerves 9, 10, and 12 – but we do know that he has issues with speech, swallowing, gag reflex, and tongue movement, so those nerves are not missing entirely, but not 100% either.

Someone posted this on the Moebius support page on Facebook.  I just thought it was really cool the way they laid it all out.  I want to say, for the record – that i did NOT write the following, nor do i own the image.  it came from this facebook page.

I’ve gone through and bolded the Cranial Nerves that are effected with Ozzie’s syndrome.
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There are 12 paired cranial nerves that exit the skull under the brain’s surface that extend to various parts of the head, neck, chest and abdomen. The cranial nerves comprises three nerve types: motor nerves that send an impulse signal to a muscle; sensory nerves that transmit sensations from the body back to the brain; and autonomic nerves with both motor and sensory components that monitor and control visceral functions such as salivation, heart rate and intestinal movement. The cranial nerves are numbered one through 12 and are referred to by either their name or number.

1 – The Olfactory Nerve
The olfactory nerve is a sensory nerve that receives and transmits the sense of smell from the nose and sinuses back to the brain. It is located under the frontal lobes of the brain and perforates the skull at the cribiform plate.

2 — The Optic Nerve
The optic nerve is a sensory nerve responsible for vision. It transmits signals from the retina in the eye back to the visual cortex in the posterior lobes of the brain traversing the skull through the optic canal.

3 — The Oculomotor Nerve
The oculomotor nerve traverses the skull through the superior orbital fissure and is both a motor and autonomic nerve. The motor portion transmits signals from the brain that result in eye movements. The autonomic portion controls constriction and dilation of the pupil and prevents the upper eyelid from drooping.

4 — The Trochlear Nerve
The trochlear nerve is a motor nerve that sends signals from the brain causing the eye to move in the downward and inward directions. The trochlear nerve also traverses the skull through the superior orbital fissure.

5 — The Trigeminal Nerve
The trigeminal nerve is the largest of the 12 cranial nerves and is both a motor and sensory nerve. The motor portion of the trigeminal nerve is responsible for jaw movement and chewing, while the sensory portion of the nerve provides the sensation of touch over the face as well as on the surface of the eye. There are three major branches of the trigeminal nerve–the ophthalmic branch, the maxillary branch and the mandibular branch, which each traverses the skull in different locations.

6 — The Abducens Nerve
The abducens nerve is a motor nerve that is responsible for lateral or outward eye movement. It traverses the skull through the superior orbital fissure.

7 — The Facial Nerve
The facial nerve traverses the skull through the internal auditory canal and has all three nerve type components–motor, sensory and autonomic. The motor portion is responsible for facial movements and expression, as well as some muscles deep in the neck. The sensory portion is responsible for registering taste on the anterior two- thirds of the tongue. The autonomic portion monitors and controls moisture of the eyes as well as salivation.

8 — The Auditory Nerve
The auditory nerve is also known as the vestibulocochlear nerve and has both sensory and autonomic nerve characteristics. The cochlear portion is sensory, innervating the inner ear and is responsible for hearing. The vestibular portion is autonomic, innervating a different portion of the inner ear and is responsible of the sense of balance. The auditory nerve also exits the skull via the internal auditory canal.

9 — The Glossopharyngeal Nerve
The glossopharyngeal nerve exits the skull via the jugular foramen carrying motor, sensory and autonomic nerve types. The motor portion innervates muscles of the neck responsible for swallowing and speech. The sensory portion transmits taste and touch from the posterior one-third of the tongue as well as sensation of a portion of the ear. The autonomic portion monitors and controls dilatation of a portion of the carotid artery in the neck and thereby has an influence on blood pressure.

10 — The Vagus Nerve
The vagus nerve exits the skull through the jugular foramen as well and is also composed of motor, sensory and autonomic nerve types. The motor portions innervate muscles of the throat that aid in swallowing and speech. The vagus nerve supplies sensory information from the throat and is responsible for the gag reflex. The autonomic portion extends nerves to regions of the aorta in the chest that monitor blood pressure and to nerves in the abdomen that monitor and control bowel function.

11 — The Spinal Accessory Nerve
The spinal accessory nerve is a motor nerve that innervates and causes movement of the sternocleidomastoid muscle in the neck and the trapezius muscle in the upper back resulting in shrugging. It also exits the skull via the jugular foramen.

12 — The Hypoglossal Nerve
The hypoglossal nerve is a motor nerve that innervates the muscles of the tongue responsible for tongue movement. It traverses the skull through the hypoglossal canal.

On Giving Myself Permission

It’s time to be brutally honest, here.  Having a child with special needs and/or delays… is hard.

Not every day is full of victories.  Some days are full of mom and dad just counting down the hours until bedtime.

Sometimes dealing with your day means letting your child stare at an iPod because it keeps him happy and occupied so you can load the dishwasher, or drink another cup of coffee, or have a grown up conversation with an actual adult.

Sometimes i don’t visit friends because the prospect of packing up my children and getting them organized to go out is too much work, because the idea of having to carry around my 28lb child already makes me exhausted, because having to fight over everything with the older one seems like more trouble than it’s worth.  Sometimes you let the children watch tv instead of playing outside because you just want the little one to WALK ALREADY and you’re tired and even though you feel like a terrible parent, you eat chips at salsa at 10 am because it’s generally frowned upon to be wasted when caring for small children and emotional eating is better than emotional drinking at this point.

The worst part is that none of this is their fault.  The worst part is that even though you KNOW this, sometimes you feel like it is their fault.

Having kids, in general, is hard.  Watching kids who are the same age or younger than Ozzie run around and play and skip and jump and talk and eat french fries and be independent is really hard.  A friend of mine also has a child with some special needs… and sometimes she is jealous of the things that Ozzie can do.  She reminded me that sometimes it’s okay to cry and to feel like you’re doing a shit-poor job of parenting… as long as it doesn’t last forever.
It’s okay to be sad, or tired, or exhausted.  It’s okay to tell someone, they aren’t going to think you’re a terrible person, instead maybe they’ll just think that you are on the brink and need support… and it’s okay for us Special moms to NOT be super heroes all the time.

This is a hard lesson.  One i suppose i need right now. Days like today are few and far between, but they are never easy.

update:
Sometimes, i have amazing friends, and they bring me cakes. ❤
cake